IN FRONT OF THE ORTHOPAEDICS DEPARTMENT

Standing in the long never ending queue

With pain in ankle

And with fear in heart,

I waited for my turn

Now I have reached a place

From where I can see the medics

There were four medics sitting

And examining the patients

There was the angry medic scolding the patient

There was the serious medic giving advices to the patient

There was emotionless medic examining without any emotion

And then there was the smiling medic sitting at the corner

I stood there with deep pain

Seeing so many orthopaedic  patients

Wondering whether there is only orthopaedic department  in the hospital

Or whether all the patients are in the orthopaedic department only

My doubts vanished

When I peeped into surgery department

So many so many people

Waiting to see the surgeon

The Queue was moving

I was also moving

Praying to the almighty

That my medic should be the smiling medic

At last it is my turn next

Yes, God has heard my prayer!

I went to the smiling medic

And showed my sprained ankle

It is really a miracle!
My fear has totally gone now

Not because the medic examined it

But his words has caused it

The medic smilingly examined

My sprained ankle,

Send me for the x-ray but

With the words that there is no problem with you at all

Again I was in the queue

But this time it is not larger

Coz, I was standing near the

Medic to show my x-ray.

The medic examined my x-ray

Alas, there was smile in his face,

He asked me, what do you do?

I told him I am a HR personnel.

With a smile, he asked me

To come to the plaster room

Which was on the other side of the building

I went there with deep pain and fear

There was a huge rush before the plaster room

Alas! So many people with fractures

It was a new experience to me

Seeing a lot people with lot of expression and fractures

There came the smiling medic running

Asked me to go with him

Told me about my condition with a smile

Which made me feel that I have no problems

Slowly, slowly, with soothing words and smiles

The medic plastered my right leg

Yes, now I cannot walk at all

Which made me scream like

Still the medic was smiling at me

Seeing me walking with one leg

Now, with deep pain in my mind

I stood there like a pollar, thinking that I cannot walk for the whole life

The medic came to me

No soothing words, No smiles

Came there and spoke to me for one minute

That mesmerising words, made walk with one leg

Now, It is one month flew by

Again I went in front of Orthopaedics department

Standing in the never ending queue

I went and saw the medic with the smiling face

The medic smiled at me

Asked me to go and remove my plaster

And see him by walking

And said very coolly” I don’t think there is any problem with you at all”

I slowly walked to the medic

Again with pain and fear

He examined me, looking into my eyes

Told those mesmerising words again

Yes, now I feel determined

I can walk now

I have pain,I feel it

But I don’t have fear

Now, what was my condition?

Why did the medic plaster my leg?

What was the mesmerising words

Which made my fear and pain flew away

What I thought a sprained ankle

Was a fracture in the ankle

It was not critical injury

But it was serious injury

When the medic told me

“God wants you to take one month rest”

My  fear flew away

Without any problem

When the medic again told me

“God says that you are okay now and your rest period ends here

My determination came back

And along with fear my pain also flew away.

Dedicated to Dr. Saju

Orthopaedics Department

Kottayam Medical College

Thanks a lot sir………for the soothing words and assurances………

I was very happy 
When I was admitted in the hospital in the room 101
Coz, I have seen the medics telling some that there is no 
Need of admitting this patient, as there is no hope
And It showed that they had some hope on me

I was very happy
When the man in the room no 102 said,
So, “You have a big family”
Coz, inspite of having 6 grown up children,
Two wives and eight siblings he was always alone
And I was never left alone for a single minute
Though I had only one husband, two small children and one sister.


I was very happy 
When the man in the room no. 103 said
“So you can sleep peacefully”
Coz, he was the top official of a company who was
Never able to sleep in the day due to pain and in the 
Night due to phone calls. I Slept peacefully in the night
Coz, my friends never ever allowed me to sleep in the day 
With their calls and presence.

I was very happy 
When the lady in the room no.104 said
“So, You have a home”
Cos, she always had food from the hospital canteen
Inspite of having 3 houses
And she always heard my cooking classes over phone.
To the one and only home I have

I was very happy
When the man in the room no. 105 teased me
So, “You are a sales or marketing department”
As , he always heard me asking to the caller
Over phone……Hai, How are you ? 
Coz, he never received any phone calls or visitors 
In the hospital……as he was the director. 


I was very happy
When my friends who came to visit 
Said, “Yar did anything happen to the road or the benz”
Coz, benz is very costly and we cannot afford it.
And for you we are there.



I was very happy 
When the nurse said to me
You will recover faster than others
Coz, you have relations
As she saw me walking 
Holding my sister
And showed me others
Who walked on crutches.

I was very happy, 
When the medic said, 
I am sending you out of this hospital,
Coz, You don’t need our support
Because you have everything
Which money can’t buy

BEAUTY QUEEN

It was 4.30 in the evening.

I was preparing snacks in the kitchen. Suddenly, I heard the loud voice,”Amma, Amma” …..Yes, it was my younger daughter Kavya.

This serene calm girl always comes very silently. No high volume talks, no sharing of school experiences. Just a Hi only when she returns from the school. Always, she sips the coffee munching the snacks, watching the television.  When, I ask any questions about the school, she replies in 2-3 words.

Today, on hearing her shouting, I ran to the entrance fearing something, but the moment she saw me, she hugged me and kissed me and jumpingly told, Amma, I have a surprise for you  guess?

“I will just go to the kitchen, bring the snacks, by that time, you just go and change and then we will talk”

Hearing this, she pushed me to the chair, ran to the kitchen, switched off the stove and came back runningly.

“No, let’s discuss first”

“What surprise dear,are you the school leader this time also”

“No Ma, it is something you asked me to do always”

“Ok dear, I give up”

“Ma, I have joined a competition, can you guess which competition.

It was to my utter surprise that she joins a competition. She had the inborn talents of drawing and writing but even after repeated requests from all the family members, she never joins a competition.

“Have you joined the drawing competition”

“No”

Suddenly, as usual with a loud bang my elder daughter Bhavya came back from college.

“Ha, this is a surprise, what discussion is going on here”

“You sit here, I said”

“No, I am very hungry, only after taking some food, I will join you..

See, she has joined a competition.

“soon her hunger flew away, jumpingly she shouted,

“what my dear, you have joined a competition. Which competition dear, singing, drawing, craftmaking……she said in a breath.

“No, No ….. guess

“Ok, I give up.

“Me too ..Bhavya

Ma, they are conducting a beauty contest in our school, and I have joined it.

We were speechless for a moment and then Bhavya was looking into my eyes.

“My mouth wide open, I asked “what beauty competition?

“Yes, Have I done anything wrong.”

No, No…you carry on…..I said and went to the kitchen.

I know very clearly that she will be eliminated from the beauty contest in the first round with her plain looks and slim physique and usual shyness. But, on seeing her enthusiasm, I don’t know, how to make her withdraw from the competition.

Firstly, I thought, I will ask Bhavya to talk to her, as these two girls shared a bond. But then, I thought it is 15 days more, by that time, she will change her mind.

From that day, onwards, Kavya was very enthusiastic. Everyday, back from school, she discussed about competition. Infact, she was always talking about the competition.

As per usual routine, on return from school, she after taking the coffee, sits calmly, do the daily chores, studies and sleep. She talks very very less.

Now a days, she was always doing something or other for the contest. She herself arranged the dress, make up and ornaments. Always, she was talking and humming .

Unlike  Kavya, Bhavya talks a a lot. Everyday, she has lot of things to discuss. Her talks were never ending.

When, it was only six days left for the competition, and it was the last day to withdraw from the competition, we hoped that she will withdraw herself. But on that day also, the preparations went on.

Then, on that day, Bhavya came to me and secretly asked, “Amma, what do you thing of her competing in the contest? We know she will be eliminated in the first round which she cannot bear. Then why are you not discouraging her?

“See dear, I do want to ask her to withdraw from the competition, but seeing her enthusiasm, I am unable to tell her.

“Amma, I have also tried to speak her, but I have not seen her so adamant. She says, whatever comes, she will compete

Five more days left, kavya’s enthusiasm were in heights along with our fears.

We fearfully watched the preparations she made. We were always discussing about consoling her on elimination. But she had the confidence that she will be the beauty queen of the school.

Then, the day of the competition came. Mind was very fearful. Kavya, went to the school, very early with all her preparation. Bhavya took half day and came in the noon.

We both went to the competition with heavy hearts. Everybody was smiling and talking. We both were not in the  mood of talking and enjoying. Bhavya, being the old student of the school, went to the teachers and talked.

But to our surprise, we didn’t see Kavya anywhere there.

Then, the competitions started. One by one competitors came, we sat there holding breath and hand in hand. But, Kavya didn’t came to the stage. This time, we were very relaxed. We thought that she herself had withdrawn from the contest in the last moment.

The results were announced. The girl who was selected as the beauty queen came to the stage, collected the prize and then she was asked to make a speech.

In the speech she told that, I am just a beauty queen in the stage. But the real beauty queen is my very best friend Kavya. Kavya has helped me to win this contest, Actually, she is my sponsorer. She gave me dresses, ornaments etc. and above all the confidence to face this stage. I just want to introduce my dear friend before you all.

Then, she invited Kavya to the stage. She came to the stage with her usual calmness and shyness. Claps and cheers were going on for her in the stage. Then the principal asked her, “what made you do this girl” She as a reply to the question, my main encouragement in my mother and sister. I have told my parents that, I am a joining the contest. I know, they were very fearful of me losing the contest in the first round. But still they never discouraged me, and they are here to watch me in the stage.

Tears were rolling down out cheeks. Both me and Bhavya were crying. After the programme, Kavya, as usual came running to us. Bhavya went to her and hugged her tightly.

“Amma, why both of you are crying”, is it coz, I have not joined the competition.

“No dear, No”, you are the real beauty queen today, you have made us proud today. You are the beauty queen of our hearts dear.”

26^th March, 2008, I cannot forget this day in my life. My ammamma left me on this day…..

Many a relatives, has said to me that, she was a tough person, or it is quiet difficult to get along with her, But I was her most favourite grandchild.

The will power she had was beyond one’s expectation. She was very modern, she was not superstitious. She always told me, if I was educated at that time, I would have been a magistrate today….Yes, she could be, when we came to know the hardships she faced in her childhood and then how she overcame it, and after marriage,she learned reading and writing…Yes, she read English also….not the sentences, but she understood the alphabets…..she after coming to Delhi, learned to speak hindi also……

I always called her Amma, during my childhood, we spoke only for 3 days a week, on the other 4 days, we quarreled with each other, and we didn’t talk with each other. But on that days also, everything was regulat. She packed my lunchbox, she came to call me back from school, she will hold my school bag…..everything was normal, except the talking part…..after that, we talked with each other, as if nothing had happened, and again the next quarrel starts…..

After grown up, she was more than a grandmother, she was just like a friend. I shared my college experiences with her….She listened to it, argued with me on right and wrong. Till today many of my friends (Esp. Boys) remember her . They always tell the taste of food by her….

She knows a little bit of astrology, so, I asked her many questions. Her answers were always positive and motivating. I always asked her, amma……when will I get a govt. job, she said……konthe, illaida, onak ath kidakath, aana athuk mele yenavath kidakum…..Sometimes, she told me…..I am going to die….then at that time I cried, then she soothed me….Onak 2 kuzhanthakal aayi, avale paarth, nee nalla oru positionle aayit thaan naan poven….and she kept her word…..

One day, while we were all away from home, she got her first heart attack, at that time, she was cleaning the home, she felt the pain. She quickly laid down in the coat, after some time, she got up and completed the cleaning. In the evening, when we came, she told us that, she had a little pain. Ani took her to the doctor, the doctor came to know that this was the condition. The doc was appa’s friend, so he quickly called appa, and asked him to take her to medical college, and asked amma, not to move or walk. But then she walked coolly from the doctor’s home to the nearest junction to get into a autorickshaw, and when we rushed her to the medical college, they put her in the ICU for 5 days. I still remember, when during the time allotted, I went to see her in the ICU, she started talking……then the nurse told her, not to talk too much.

Who cares……she told me…Nee aathile poyi comb ellam eduthund vaa, naan thalaye vaari pinni ketti vittaren….where the doctor has asked her not to take even a mug of water with hands.

The will power she had is amazing…..On the day of March 25^th When I went to see her, she was a little bit out of senses. She was showing the last moment symptoms. Ididn’t get it, but later came to know about it.

She was unable to know people. But the moment, I held her hand, mummy asked, athai, ith yaaru shollaraya…..suddenly she said: ith ennode kuzhanthai aakum….and then she asked me , nee innak pokanda, enge ennod kittake paduthuko…I laid down with her in the night, she was talking too much in the night, I asked her, ammak ini aare aavath parkanama, the moment, she answered: konthe, paar ennod intha right side poyach, kannuk kazhcha illai, naalek noon intha time minnadi  naan poyiduven. Ini ennale yaareyum paaka mudiyatha. She knows that death was approaching. I asked her, amma bhayamirukka, ethukkudi bhayapedanam, enakanalum ponam….ath oru vela minthi avalvo thane. She faced the death with the same calmness and steadiness with which she faced the lifed. At this point I asked, amma ippadi yellam shollaraye, amma ponna, inime ennak yaaru irukka, at this point she told me, unak eppo venamanalum enne koopadalam, naan un kitteye iruppen….nee kanne moodi naan vanthuduven.

Yes, till date, whenever I get a little bit tensed, I remember her, the face gives me good soothing and solace,she sometimes, speaks to me , she advises me….I feel her warmth, when I enter the room where she had her last breath, We in our home, never ever has felt that, she is no more, she is there, talking to each and everybody.

I do want to write more about her, but tears are not allowing …….

Don't Hope.....Just Decide

While waiting to pick up a friend at the airport in Portland, Oregon, I had one of those life-changing experiences that you hear other people talk about — the kind that sneaks up on you unexpectedly. This one occurred a mere two feet away from me.

Straining to locate my friend among the passengers deplaning through the jet way, I noticed a man coming toward me carrying two light bags. He stopped right next to me to greet his family.

First he motioned to his youngest son (maybe six years old) as he laid down his bags. They gave each other a long, loving hug. As they separated enough to look in each other’s face, I heard the father say, “It’s so good to see you, son. I missed you so much!” His son smiled somewhat shyly, averted his eyes and replied softly, “Me, too, Dad!”

Then the man stood up, gazed in the eyes of his oldest son (maybe nine or ten) and while cupping his son’s face in his hands said, “You’re already quite the young man. I love you very much, Zach!” They too hugged a most loving, tender hug.

While this was happening, a baby girl (perhaps one or one-and-a-half) was squirming excitedly in her mother’s arms, never once taking her little eyes off the wonderful sight of her returning father. The man said, “Hi, baby girl!” as he gently took the child from her mother. He quickly kissed her face all over and then held her close to his chest while rocking her from side to side. The little girl instantly relaxed and simply laid her head on his shoulder, motionless in pure contentment.

After several moments, he handed his daughter to his oldest son and declared, “I’ve saved the best for last!” and proceeded to give his wife the longest, most passionate kiss I ever remember seeing. He gazed into her eyes for several seconds and then silently mouthed. “I love you so much!” They stared at each other’s eyes, beaming big smiles at one another, while holding both hands.

For an instant they reminded me of newlyweds, but I knew by the age of their kids that they couldn’t possibly be. I puzzled about it for a moment then realized how totally engrossed I was in the wonderful display of unconditional love not more than an arm’s length away from me. I suddenly felt uncomfortable, as if I was invading something sacred, but was amazed to hear my own voice nervously ask, “Wow! How long have you two been married?

“Been together fourteen years total, married twelve of those.” he replied, without breaking his gaze from his lovely wife’s face. “Well then, how long have you been away?” I asked. The man finally turned and looked at me, still beaming his joyous smile. “Two whole days!”

Two days? I was stunned. By the intensity of the greeting, I had assumed he’d been gone for at least several weeks – if not months. I know my expression betrayed me.

I said almost offhandedly, hoping to end my intrusion with some semblance of grace (and to get back to searching for my friend), “I hope my marriage is still that passionate after twelve years!”

The man suddenly stopped smiling.

He looked me straight in the eye, and with forcefulness that burned right into my soul, he told me something that left me a different person. He told me, “Don’t hope, friend… decide!” Then he flashed me his wonderful smile again, shook my hand and said, “God bless!

I still recall the tender smile, the cheerful face

Of my dearest dad who shared and cheered

My moments of pain, movements in pai

You are the greatest dad I’ve ever seen

My nights were alive with your stories vivid

In your cosy bosom, my fears were unfounded

But today, I’m left to myself, to my world

Of memories enveloped in your gentle strong arms.

How can I forgot you Dad?

In mayflower I see your face again

Sentiments of love, rudiments of learning

I owe my dad…the alphabet of living

Memories of your kind letters

Still bring holidays in my life

Today I think and thank

In my little world.the giant of a dad

I love you my dad……..

Every Mother Needs a Daughter

All mothers need a daughter-
someone like her to be
To dress her up and take her out
for all the world to see.
To brush her hair so shiny
the pretty bows to tie
To teach her how to clean her room
and how to bake a pie.
Then one day when she's older
and finds her love so true
She never will forget the many
things she learned from you.
Someday she'll have her children
my wish for her would be
To have a lovely daughter
one who is just like she

Once , I just Asked My Parents,
Who 'm I ? You are My Child...

Once , I just Asked My Brother 'n Sister,
Who 'm I ? You are My Sister...

Once , I just Asked to My Friend,
Who 'm I ? You are My Friend...

Once , I just Asked to Other,
Who 'm I ? You are Strenger...

Once , I just Asked to God,
Who 'm I ? You are My Art...

But that was not My Answer...
I wanna hear something else
Suddenly I 'm shocked when someone Call me...

I Just Asked to Him...
Who Are You ? He told me...

I 'm Your Dream
I 'm Your Life
I 'm Your Everything
I 'm Your Real love...

This is me...
'coz I wanna to here only just "You Are My Love".. !

But Nobody Tell Me This.. !!

that's life

Tears roll down the cheeks but no one to stop them...
People say I care but as usual they are just words...

The world is filled but still it gives the feeling of Emptiness...
Life wants itself to be ended but it still continues to beat...

People are all around saying we are there
but still eyes are in search of some one who really cares...
That's life-undefined yet we desire to live.. !

I am bad

I'm bad in English, but I can tell you ''I love you'' I'm bad at Geography, but I can ...tell you that you live in my heart i'm bad in history, but i can remember when i first saw u i'm bad in chemistry i can tell whats d reaction when u smile i'm bad in physics i can tell d intensity of spark of my eyes when dey see u i'm bad in every subject i can tell i will pass all subjects if their topic is "U"

Love

I don't think you will
ever fully understand
how you've touched my life
and made me who I am.

I don't think you could ever know
just how truly special you are
that even on the darkest nights
you are my brightest star.

I don't think you will ever fully comprehend
how you've made my dreams come true
or how you've opened my heart
to love and the wonders it can do.

You've allowed me to experience
something very hard to find
unconditional love that exists
in my body, soul, and mind.

I don't think you could ever feel
all the love I have to give
and I'm sure you'll never realize
you've been my will to live.

You are an amazing person
and without you I don't know where I'd be.
Having you in my life
completes and fulfills every part of me.

Miserable Love

I was miserable until I found you. The day that we met I was thinking of not going out at all. Lucky I did because now I have you in my life. I was sad, depressed, and didn’t care about anything. Then you showed up and turned my world upside down. You turned my frown upside down. No one has been able to do that in a long time. I look at you and you look back. You ask me what is wrong. I say nothing, I’ve just been wondering where you have been all my life. You say that you were wondering the same thing about me. I smile and think that you are just perfect. I tell you: Until you I wanted my world to end. Until you I had nothing to look forward to in the day. Until you I was just part of the crowd. Now that I have you all of that is just is the opposite, no one can ever change that Now that you are here, you have completed me and my life.

Love

That drowns the tender reed
Some say love, it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed

Some say love, it is a hunger
An endless aching need
I say love, it is a flower
And you, its only seed


It's the heart, afraid of breaking
That never learns to dance
It's the dream, afraid of waking
That never takes the chance


It's the one who won't be taken
Who cannot seem to give
And the soul, afraid of dying
That never learns to live


When the night has been too lonely
And the road has been too long
And you think that love is only
for the lucky and the strong


Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snow
Lies the seed
That with the sun's love, in the spring
Becomes the rose

My Love

At the age of 14, when you came into my dreams

I thought It is just a crush, it will go

At the age of 20, when the crush was still there

I thought It is just a infatuation.

At the age of 25, when the infatuation was still there

I recognized it is love

At the age of 30 when I can’t forget him

I recognized it is true love

At the age of 35 I thought of meeting

My true love will now turn into dreams

At the age of 40, when I met him

All my dreams come true

And so goes the words

If your love is true, It will definitely come back to you………….

Love.............Love..........Silent Love

10th Grade:-
As I sat there in English class,
I stared at the girl next to me.
She was my so called 'best friend'.
I stared at her long, silky hair,
and wished she was mine.
But she didn't notice me like that,
and I knew it.
After class,
she walked up to me and asked me for
the notes she had missed the day before.
I handed them to her.She said 'thanks'
and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her, I want her to know
that I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.


11th grade:-
The phone rang. On the other end,
it was her. She was in tears,
mumbling on and on about how
her love had broke her heart.
She asked me to come over
because she didn't want to be alone, So I did.
As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her
soft eyes, wishing she was mine.
After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie,
and three bags of chips,
she decided to go home.
She looked at me, said 'thanks'
and gave me a kiss
on the cheek..I want to tell her,
I want her to know that
I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.


Senior year:-
One fine day she walked to my locker.
'My date is sick' she said,
'hes not gonna go' well,
I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade,
we made a promise that
if neither of us had dates,
we would go together just as 'best friends'.
So we did.
That night, after everything was over,
I was standing at her front door step.
I stared at her as She smiled at me
and stared at me with her crystal eyes.
Then she said- 'I had the best time, thanks!'
and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her,
I want her to know
that I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.


Graduation:-
A day passed, then a week, then a month.
Before I could blink, it was graduation day.
I watched as her perfect body
floated like an angel
up on stage to get her diploma.
I wanted her to be mine-but
she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it.
Before everyone went home,
she came to me in her smock and hat,
and cried as I hugged her.
Then she lifted her head from my shoulder
and said- 'you're my best friend,
thanks' and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her,
I want her to know
that I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.


Marriage:-
Now I sit in the pews of the church.
That girl is getting married now.
and drive off to her new life,
married to another man.
I wanted her to be mine,
but she didn't see me like that,
and I knew it.
But before she drove away,
she came to me and said 'you came !'.
She said 'thanks' and kissed me on the cheek.
I want to tell her,
I want her to know
that I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.


Death:-
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin
of a girl who used to be my 'best friend'.
At the service, they read a diary entry
she had wrote in her high school years.
This is what it read:
'I stare at him wishing he was mine,
but he doesn't notice me like that,
and I know it.
I want to tell him,
I want him to know that
I don't want to be just friends,
I love him but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.
I wish he would tell me he loved me !
..........'I wish I did too...'

I thought to my self, and I cried.

One Prayer, One Life, One Death, One heart

He could not believe that this was how it was going to end. After everything that he had been thorough in his life it had come down to this. As big and as strong as he once was. Flat on his back in a hospital bed with a heart that was giving up.

He thought about everything he put himself thorough. The broken bones knocked out teeth six years in the military. All the booze, cigarettes and drugs some legal most them not. Here he was paying for the life that he led. All the hours spent on that big two wheeler. Just having to see what was over the next horizon. The wander lust in his heart. Who could have put up with that?

He thought about the girl who spent so many miles riding behind him. How he loved that woman now. Twenty-five years of good times and bad. She never left sometimes he didn’t understand why she stayed. He was grateful that she did. She was his world. Some days his temper was not to be believed. He could be moody for weeks at a time. By the end of the winter he was wearing a groove in the carpet waiting on the weather so he could get back outside. How that woman could stand that just amazed him. Then there was their daughter.

What a spitfire she is. Whoever she marries is going to have their hands full. He thought about all the overtime he put in and how much of her life he missed. She is almost finished with college. How wild is that his daughter in law school. Is the world ready for that? He wonders if she knows how proud of her he is. Does she know how much he loves her? Not being there for her is what hurts the most about this.

He was not going to think like that. He’ll get a transplant stop smoking and drinking and life will go on as it has in the past. A cigarette sounds good about now he thought. The rare blood type that he has that kept in beer money half of his life. Is now going to be the reason that he ends dying on his back in a hospital bed. What a way to go out. Where is the blaze of glory he always figured would accompany his departure from this world. No bells or whistle just a slow fading away. That ****s.

He woke up to hearing voices in his room. He looked around and saw that they had brought in another patient and put in his room. No dying alone now even if he wanted too. He saw woman pass by the end of the other bed. She was huge. She must have been at eight months pregnant. He thought how sad is that to have a pregnant wife and be in the IC unit of the hospital. He could them talking. The man voice was weak and he was trying to be encouraging to the woman. She told the man that he needed to get some rest and that she would there when he woke up. He could hear the steady breathing of his roommate as realized that he must have fallen on the woman’s command. He could hear the woman mumbling. He thought prayers at this point lady are not going to help. Then voice got a little louder and he could hear her.

She was praying. Just like he thought. But what she was praying for sent chills down his spine. “Oh God just a couple of more months. Please let him live long enough to hold our child in his arms at least once before you call him home. Please just a few more days. I know he is dying but let him see his child first.”

As he laid he thought how hard her life was going to be. He thought about the unborn child growing up without their father. Who would his daughter be if he had died that early in her life. What would happen to his wife. With his quirks she loved him with all of her being. How would have she survived.

He must have drifted off again. 



With the lighting in this place you can never figure out what time it is. His roommates were talking again about how he would never get the transplant that he needed in time the list was so long and he was so sick.

The nurse came in and told him we have to get you ready they had found him a heart. It was on its way and they needed to get him prep for the surgery. He looked at her ask her to get his wife and his daughter for him. She said there was no time. He looked at her and told her to make the time.

He watched his wife walk in. She was so beautiful. Their daughter behind her, her mother’s looks and intelligence and her father pit bull mentality and he smiled. One on either side of his bed holding his hands. Was he strong enough for this he didn’t know? He done a lot bad things in his life he cut corners and cheated when he could get a way with. But this was different this was where the rubber meets the road. He knew what had to be done. He looked at his wife and said, “ I love more now than I ever did thank you for the life we have had. I will miss you.”

To his daughter he said, “ Never in my wildest dreams did I ever think that I could have a child like you. No father anywhere at anytime could be a more proud parent than I am. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me. I will love until the last star is a memory.”

The doctor came rushing into the room and started talking about how they had to get him ready. He looked at wife and his daughter then he turned to the doctor and told him “ Doc we ain’t doing this. You give that heart to the person on the list. I have had a good life. Let someone else get a chance at theirs.”

He looked at the other woman in the room as said. “ How could God not answer your prayer”

He looked at wife and said “ Get me out of here while I still have the strength to leave and before I get scared. “

The doctor left the nurse brought in a wheel chair at he left that hospital knowing he had done the right thing. He didn’t particularly believe God but some else needed that heart. He died that at his home with wife and daughter with him. A cigarette in his mouth and a beer in his hand. With no regrets.

Back at the hospital days kept turning. His roommate was recovering from getting his heart transplant. And it looked like he would get to see his unborn child grow up.

The nurse took a different position at the hospital she could not work with dying people anymore. So she went to OB/GYN department help bring lives into the world. As things would happen the woman whose husband had needed the transplant months before was there to have her baby. The nurse was not involved in the delivery but stayed to see the child. As she was looking at baby thorough the window the husband showed up to see the baby. He noticed the tears that were running down the nurse’s face and asked her way was she crying.

The nurse responded pointing at his child she said “ That baby has daddy because of the unselfishness of one man. And the baby’s mother’s prayer.”

The man asked to explain why she would say this about this child. She told him of a night when she worked in the Intensive care unit of hospital. And that a man gave up his heart transplant to the next person on the list. The next person on the list at the hospital with the same blood type was the baby’s father.


Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation

MOTHER

MOTHER 
This is a truly BEAUTIFUL piece. Please
read this at a slow pace, digesting every word and in 
Leisure...do not hurry....this is a treasure...

For those lucky to still be blessed with your Mom,
this is beautiful. For those of us who aren't, this is
even more beautiful. For those who are moms, you'll love this. 

The young mother set her foot on the path of life. 'Is 
this the long way?' she asked. And the guide said: 'Yes, and the way is hard 
And you will be old before you reach the end of it.. But
the end will be better than the beginning.'

But the young mother was happy, and she would not
believe that anything could be better than these years. So she
played with her children, and gathered flowers for 
them along the way, and bathed them in the clear streams; and
the sun shone on them, and the young Mother cried,
'Nothing will ever be lovelier than this.'

Then the night came, and the storm, and the path was
dark, and the children shook with fear and cold, and the mother 
drew them close and covered them with her mantle, and the children said, 
'Mother, we are not afraid, for you are near, and no harm can come.'

And the morning came, and there was a hill ahead, and
the children climbed and grew weary, and the mother was weary. 
But at all times she said to the children,' A little patience and we are there.'
So the children climbed, and when they reached the top
they said, 'Mother, we would not have done it without you.' 

And the mother, when she lay down at night looked up 
at the stars and said, 'This is a better day than the last, for my
children have learned fortitude in the face of hardness. Yesterday I gave them courage. 
Today, I've given them strength.'

And the next day came strange clouds which darkened
the earth, clouds of war and hate and evil, and the children groped
and stumbled, and the mother said: 'Look up. Lift your eyes to the light. 
' And the children looked and saw above the clouds
an everlasting glory, and it guided them beyond the
darkness. And that night the Mother said, 
'This is the best day of all, for
I have shown my children God.' 

And the days went on, and the weeks and the months and 
the years, and the mother grew old and she was little and bent.
But her children were tall and strong, and walked with
courage. And when the way was rough, they lifted her,
for she was as light as a feather; and at last they came to a hill, 
and beyond they could see a shining road and golden gates flung wide. And
mother said, 'I have reached the end of my journey. And now I know the end 
is better than the beginning, for my children can
walk alone, and their children after them.' 

And the children said, 'You will always walk with us, 
Mother, even when you have gone through the gates.'
And they stood and watched her as she went on alone, and the gates
closed after her. And they said: 'We cannot see her
but she is with us still. A Mother like ours is more than a memory. She 
is a living presence.......'

Your Mother is always with you.... She's the whisper 
of the leaves as you walk down the street; she's the smell of bleach
in your freshly laundered socks; she's the cool hand
on your brow when you're not well. Your Mother lives
inside your laughter. And she's crystallized in every tear drop. 
She's the place you came from, your first home; and
she's the map you follow with every step you take. She's your first love
and your first heartbreak, and nothing on earth can
separate you.

Not time, not space... not even death!

MAY WE NEVER TAKE OUR MOTHERS FOR GRANTED...





Hundreds of dewdrops to greet the dawn,
Hundreds of bees in the purple clover,
Hundreds of butterflies on the lawn,
But only one mother the wide world over.

A Touching note from a policeman

A Touching Note from a Policeman

Sanjay, a rich guy, loved fast cars and he did have a few in his possession.
He loved to speed and could not be bothered about breaking speed limits.
Many a times he was caught by the cops and speed radars,
fined, but still he never bothered until.

One day as he was driving at a very high speed as usual, he saw a cop
following him.
The cop overtook him finally and asked him to stop and checked his license.
He then took out his pad and started Writing,
and then handed over the sheet of paper to Sanjay.
How much was this one going to cost ?!!!
Wait a minute.

What was this?Huh
Some kind of joke? Certainly not a ticket.
Sanjay began to read:

"Dear Sanjay,
Once upon a time I had a lovely daughter.
She was six when killed by a car.
You guessed it - a speeding driver's car.
A fine and three months in jail, and the man was free.
Free to hug his three daughters.
I only had one, and I'm going to have to wait until Heaven,
before I can ever hug her again.
A thousand times I've tried to forgive that man.
A thousand times I thought I had. Maybe I did,
but I need to do it again. Even now.
Pray for me.. And be careful, Sanjay, my son is all I have left."
Sanjay turned around in time to see the cop's car pull away and
head down the road.

He watched until it disappeared.
A full 15 minutes later, he too, pulled away and drove slowly home,
praying for forgiveness and hugging a surprised wife and kids when he arrived.

Life is precious. Handle it with care.